2 years ago

it's been 2 years since holden ripped open in the backyard & a couple days later nacho OD'd on 300+ advil

happy birthday shiny blue craig!

make this year your best, ready go!

read the blurbs & vote for lot dawg here!

roxy is not key club

turns out i went to the wrong club saturday night! i thought i was at the roxy. tea leaf green was playing next door at the roxy. i was at the key club. where the kottonmouth kings were playing. i don't know why my tlg ticket was accepted at the door. i don't know why i didn't look at the name of the venue i was entering.
i know why i missed biscuits, i know why i missed friends.

done with LA

3.5 hrs drive in painful slick traffic rain


3 opening 'bands'


kottonmouth kings blasting loud screaming


packed with baggy black & white & sideways hats


guys next to me take jager shot jager shot jager shot jager shot whiskey drink


turn to fired up drunk steaknecks


throws beer bottle on the ground


shard cuts his hand & arm


shard cuts my hand


waving swinging punching blood on me


black shirt flashlight security roughed up kicked out yelling


1130 kottonmouth kings still on stage screaming LA WHERE YOUR WEED AT


whose blood on my sweater, whose blood on my pink wristband


i'm getting the fuck out of here


i missed biscuits, i missed friends


i don't care

holden so benign

flipping a

you know you're high when...

...hearing a knock on the hotel room door, you run to exhale down the bathroom sink drain. and turn on the faucet.

and there was nobody knocking.

balboa park 12-05-06

sprinkler hits the lightpost at the dogpark

carolaiku

late nite candy trips
to the circus room use my
meal card for pop tarts

joyner dorm all girls
nerd stuck up sorostitute
athlete bossy shy

run dark night late field
shower with your flip flops on
big robe change in room

dusty matted rug
not old cheap clammy a/c
high ceiling wood door

books in bags in piles
on floor wood desk white loft with
matching comforters

first week syllabus
how many can i miss &
get away with it

register for class
based on who's taken taking
easiest teacher

turn in book reports
don't raise hand teacher wrote she
sensed intelligence

cute boys on sidewalks
why aren't they in this class room
we'd have common work

dorm kitchen used once
everclear jello shots passed
out before noon bad

relevant old onion

Use Of Organic Peanut Butter Adds Two Minutes To Local Man's Life

bad skippy

i love peanut butter and the name of this site is skippy haha but in no way do i endorse the use of skippy peanut butter. ever. or any 'peanut butter' to which they've added cancer-causing 'fat' & 'sugar' to enhance its flavor/stirredness.

peanut butter should look like this




separation is
natural shake well stir it up
applies to good things

where do you think all the crap they add to the peanut butter goes? after years and years
lipomas everywhere

how bad is it? they won't even give the ingredients to their 'peanut butter' on the skippy peanut butter website. which happens to be peanutbutter.com. ba$tards.

they also make a 'natural' peanut butter, and instead of pumping it full of transfats like the regular skippy, they use palm oil and sugar and other garbage. it's a trick and it's gross marketing.

unskippy haha

invisible ink

i see a red door and i want to paint it black
boiling over with impatience and pissy vitriol

amsterdam apts

not longing haiku 63-69

singer just a whore
sell her talents to takers
come one come all pay

each interaction
rubs raw the nerves on the back
of my neck shreds them

much too intense for
me to belive that you would
be happy as friends

the right ones just left
the others hung back vultures
they swoop for the kill

i'd tell him & he'd
fall & then we'd both be stuck
with dangling bridges

when you soar and i
know you've stolen my wings i
wish you shot down lame

hovering breathing
heavy snorting and grunting
like the pig you are

that toddling town

monarch

holden's regenerating balls

trying to overcome being neutered, holden grows another set of cojones on his ribs.



going to the vet thursday.

one from sept. '05

strange cargo

thanksgiving 2006!

thanks thanks thanks & then some more THANKS!

no comments

i am unthankful because i switched to their stupid blogger beta crap & now comments don't work on this site and i don't know how to fix it and really can't stand the whole idea of trying more than the hour i just spent looking in the goddamn blogger help board
i need help

wreck

i just got in a car accident.

sort of.

an old guy rode his bike into the front passenger side of my car while i was turning left with a green arrow.

he rolled off the car, bent his bike rim & scraped up his forearm & i gave him the tijuana city of tomorrow shirt from my trunk for his bleeding arm & the $250 in my wallet for his rim.

he didn't want to call the cops, he didn't want to go to the hospital, he had a friend on a bike with him, also 40-50 y.o. homeless missing teeth dirty flannel glinting eyes agreeing i should leave before the cops come.

the front of my car is dented & scraped, i'm fine.

getting it

you reached out & said i got it
if i reach back i'm afraid
i'll get stuck
breaking yours
mine won't break
won't give it away
any more than i get
careful about one thing
and you should hate me for it
but never would

my weekend

this isn't an eagles concert

it is a hotel california & a lot of residents give it as much respect as they do a hotel room

avl

elected terry bellamy 33 smart black woman mayor
pro hockey minor league baseball
13" snow/year
low crime
all galleries & independent local shops & street cafes & parks & construction & tourists no chains
2 universities lakes rivers hospitals live music film festival decaying warehouses bookstores moldy shack gingerbread house chain link fence live music film festival street musicians tenor sax when the saints go marching in couple fiddlers young & hot biscuits river district artist studio stroll heady grocery stores manufacturing pvc pipe backpacks shrimp & grits & dogs all over the place

from "The Octopus and the Squid - The Soft Intelligence" by J.Y. Cousteau

The octopus is the chameleon of the sea. Or rather, the Proteus of the sea -- the modern-day embodiment of the mythological hero who escaped his enemies by constantly changing his form. Indeed, the sudden changes of color and form by means of which cephalopods attempt to throw their enemies off the track are called "protean manifestation." For cephalopods are excellent actors, with vast repertories, and they are able to play many roles by making use of stratagems which, on dry land, are usually found only in the theater: disguises, gestures, mime, poses and posturing.

The octopuses we encountered displayed all these tricks in abundance for our divers, just as they do for eels and groupers. Being without the natural protection of shells, they find safety only in flight or in disguises. They are undoubtedly the champions of hide-and-seek.

nc trip

north carolina =


tea leaf green



asheville




charlotte






road to panthers' game


BUZZ bank of america stadium free visor nite panthers v. bucs

(how many visors can you count?)

LISA was the best topcat! so amazingly cool!


charlotte's changing

on holiday

nixon letter

mix of tenants

big liquor store on the right

vote!

who can forget nacho in the voting is for old people shirt?
(bottom of page)

there is no cat

stretch it out

keep barking dogs

peace haiku 23-29

imagine them in
their underwear & know that
they want you to win

figs are full of red
sweet pulpy seeds to eat when
birds don't get there first

try best not to take
personally or assume
impeccable words

i hate your fear and
want you to be stronger than
i can imagine

push harder against
the tendency to just sit
there & do nothing

i'm sorry you cried
i tried to be honest &
gentle but couldn't

i can see past it
the walls of scars of blue pain
erupt swept away

not longing haiku 56-62

intentionally
bored lady is painful to
look at forced phony

i don't trust you to
execute my ideas
where does that leave us

you poured paint in my
garden poisoned all of my
tomatoes bastard

you can't have lust's rush
and love's security at
the same time for long

petty pecking for
three years learn the lingo pass
bar you're a lawyer

jealous petulant
obstinate au contraire mon
frere get over it

same thing as before
different cast of characters
same thing as before

day of the living

soho santa barbara

rock n roll band dvd

if you're looking for a present to give, and a t-shirt won't do, this tea leaf green live cd/dvd with interviews might be good and comes out tomorrow, while you wait for the guadalajara joe 2+-disc set to come out, which maybe by the holidaze.

i get newsday