R.I.P. holden (June 7, 1998 - April 9, 2010)

holden had to be put to sleep last night, he ate a stick that lodged in his intestines and poked a hole through both sides and became infected. he was his normal happy self yesterday morning, went on a walk jumping around a creek and everything, and then yesterday afternoon threw up and started acting sluggish and by 4pm for the first time in his entire life he wouldn't eat a treat i put next to his nose so we took him to the vet and he could hardly walk and they took xrays and gave him a morphine drip and got him ready for surgery and we went back there with him and petted him and told him he's a good boy and they called a couple hours later while he was on the operating table and said the infection was too bad and i gave permission to put him to sleep and cremate him. he was only in pain for a few hours tops. he was almost 12 and his cancer was growing back and i feel lucky he didn't go through more suffering. i'm okay and nacho is okay, we're all okay. he taught me so much about responsibility and commitment and unconditional love. sorry for the bad news HUG your pets from holdielocks. i love you dog.

banana peel squirrel

you'll feel better next time you throw a banana peel out the window and say 'the squirrels will use it for a nest.'

don't touch til november

spring is here and it feels like summer. full sun and low 80s. i want to do cartwheels.

i went to the dentist this morning and i have one baby tooth and in that baby tooth lives a cavity. i was expecting at least 4 cavities, so i'll take one.

no congrats from me to the men's basketball team which shall not be named but rhymes with puke.

in a fun small world situation, my friend michelle is good friends from alaska with jason the mandolin from bearfoot, who will be playing on my friend daniel's radio show in arkansas tonight:

Hello! Wanted to let you know about a live band playing on my radio show tonite (Tuesday) for your calendar and listening enjoyment. Spread the word to anyone who would be interested in a young bluegrass band featuring 3 women and 2 guys, acoustic instruments and vocal harmonies.

Bearfoot 4-6-2010 Honest Tunes Radio Webcast:
http://dgold.info/radio/webcast2010/music519

Bearfoot bluegrass band live in-studio, plus more Honest Tunes 8pm to 10pm Central on KXUA Fayetteville.

Go to www.dgold.info/radio to listen to the live webcast stream – at Showtime

easter in asheville

i hope everybody has a spectacular easter.

may all your lambs of god rise from the dead, just as the dead brown and gray branches are rising with pink and green fluorescence.

may you find all the eggs that bunny hid.

may your new shoes not give you blisters and your easter bonnet not mess up your hair.

prewash

had a fantastic couple days in new york last weekend which involved many things including a baby shower, making a poster, flower arranging, eating meatballs, octopus, and a baby-shaped cupcake, family funtime, playing shufflepuck in the world's smokiest bar and saying 'kisses henry' to my furry brother henry to get him to jump up and lick me on the face.

treacherous

the only thing more fun than moving is moving during a sleetstorm up and down crumbing stairs on the second day of spring

hooray it's over! hooray i'm not moving for another year! at the least! the very very least!

morning has broken

sweet the rain's new fall, sunlit from heaven
like the first dewfall, on the first grass

holdenfur

nachappy

spring is springing around here. have a great weekend!

tragedy

"mentally preparing" for a possible tragedy or misfortune in the future is toxic. when you imagine it happening and feel the emotions, you make yourself live through the hell, not matter how unlikely it is to happen. you can handle it. you can always handle it. it's never too much. it's always okay.

delicate arch

this was me
taking this picture

last september

it was as big of a rush as jumping from a plane telling myself i was not scared of heights

you mean like lesbian?