three colors

not longing haiku 41-48

without tomorrow
should i save or should i spend
is a no brainer

to look like this is
my destiny what i do
with it is free will

wet empty sorry
evil danced in the shadows
it was a bad trip

lucky or perfect
if you're perfect you're lucky
not the other way

everybody's got
opinions but nobobdy
knows where they come from

the holy grail is
two faces together and
also the gold cup

to sleep means to dream
of concrete & dark & tires
rest these puffy eyes

it would be a crime
to live all these days & die
without yodeling

comes around

sic balls chopper

what do you do when you're at the driving range
95% of the mats are taken
the one in front of you is not
a man comes onto it
in flip flops & a pitching wedge, drops a ball, hits it lazy one hand
turns, faces you, not even 2 or 3 feet away, straight ahead, and watches

ignore no eye contact be the ball you're not being the ball danny

he makes stupid jokes comments questions thinks he's adorable

not 2 feet away shoulders square intense scrutiny

walk away change clubs he's still watching facing, not hitting his own, only watching you

makes jokey apology for being annoying

i say you know what? i come here to be by myself & hit balls & not think for a little while, NOT to meet people

he mumbled stammered got brave said some confused shit about finding random things on the sidewalk that brighen your day still thinks he's adorable

walk away change clubs turn back to him still staring relentless

can't swing can't think slice topped ball after ball he never turns around

do something
see his head's the ball, bend knees, soft hands, hit 5 wood like 200 yards on the fly

you want the rest of these?

what? so you're just leaving?

have a good one

what? have a good one? that's all i get?

what's your name

heather

i'm james

see you around

fall has fallen

did you think those pumpkins stacked themselves?

festival del mar

without love, where would you be now?

alo

flowerstruck

pushing his luck

ralph's grocery store, san diego, 9/21/06 8pm


*also, happy birthday to the prima beccarina! shining star of milwaukee!

city livin

i go for a walk & smell nothing sweet
pounding fake rock with balls of my feet

hot tub fever = "so, you know, if you're feelin cold just think like this" - DL

listen along to ALO

read along with the words:

With a little bit of heart, and a whole lotta soul,
we're gonna get the damn thing heated
Tried before in years in the past, but this time, I won't be defeated
Cuz i drew the map and the diagram and put all the parts in place
and as Memorial Day comes to a close, I feel that time and space have come together to help me finally see this through
so by evening-time, I hope to be kickin it with you
taking the time we all deserve
maybe sipping on a gin-and-tonic, maybe smokin on a little herb
in our hot tub
even if it has to use water from my shower to get it hot
I gotta do what i got to do
cause i've carted this thing around, and I won't stop just yet
until i feel the warm therapeutic blast from the hot tub's hyper jets
Come on over and sit in my hot tub
Feel the warm therapeutic blast
You see, we were broken men at the ends of our ropes
hot with hot tub fever in their groins and in their throats
erractic behavior. loss of self control
tearing up our front deck, digging big fat holes
in the middle of the night so the owner wouldn't catch on
gravediggers in the cemetery, gone before the dawn
hot tub fever! he's got this crazy look in his eye
he spent 60 bucks on a brand new pump from those bastards down the street
30 more for chlorine, 100 to fix that leak
we spent all our money on the hot tub, until we don't got enough to eat
hot tub fever! burning in our brains!
if i could sit in it just once, I think I'd be okay
Come on over and sit in my hot tub
Feel the warm therapeutic blast
For the last four years, we've been trying to get this thing to work...

ALO here!

longing haiku 25-32

intense interest in
what you do all day how your
hours while away

waiting for the one
he would've moved for if she
had only asked him

deeper the valley
higher the mountain better
the view from the top

fresh green sap rush up
spiral thrust down spread out now
take root bloom like mad

the melody brings
me back to backseats when the
sun was clean & hot

you thought what i thought
our eyes meet flicker flicker
i thought what you thought

make me laugh so hard
i want to put you in my
pocket forever

not longing haiku 33-40

the sun goes down &
to be awake feels wrong &
lamps lit, we fight it

lost tossed would like to
gather moss but can't find a
rock to crawl under

if my last words are
it was fun while it lasted
things went pretty well

if i were a man
i could take a walk right now
without being scared

the cops have been called
you have set off an alarm
leave while you still can

one thing i believe
there is nothing inspiring
about suicide

we were friends one time
your petty desperation
ruins another meal

say the same things til
you melt into one big dull
person with no point