not longing haiku 17-24

hate to distract or
mislead or play around or
break things i cant fix

dying alone is
a better fate than dying
next to one you hate

on the fairyland
battlefield pixie wings were
strewn all glittering

i saw you today
& felt like i didn' t know
you & never had

you try to be a
good dog & bring me the bone
i don't want a bone

would i be better
off in an accident with
you or by myself

string of accidents
brace myself for more to come
won't get you involved

when i paint flashes
of childhood come back to me
that is the best part